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    Water

    It’s been a while… I’ve been working with water energy this evening…   In the ritual waters of my delving I put dried roses, buds and leaves. As they soaked up the water they became full and gave out their sweet fragrance. And then their colour. And then their definition. They became water laden, sank to the bottom, began to disintegrate. But the water held their potent perfume. If the water can’t flow, move, change it will become stagnant, the magic of the roses will become heavy, no longer cleansing and fresh. If you try to cling on, to that sweet perfume it will start to stink.   It’s medicine…

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    Blooming into Prosperity by Grieving the Ancestors

    This is a recent reading I did for myself using the Blooming into Prosperity spread. I was very lucky to be supported by a very good and intuitively on point friend in doing this reading, a friend who has a talent for seeing emotions. She was the one who saw that the main issue for me for what it was, deep sadness, and I was then able to feel that it was a deep ancestral grief. The spread showed that the crux of my difficulties with opening to the growth and receptivity necessary for prosperity, was entirely based in ancestral fears. And my friend was able to see that I…

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    Joining together to release spread

    I created this spread during a week of intensive work, basically a full on tarot retreat, with an amazing friend and spiritual co-worker (that sounds weird, but I mean it). A few days in, we both realised we had major fears of disempowerment that were messing with our flow. So I decided to create a spread through which we could support each other in releasing these fears. It was an immensely powerful experience. There were moments in it when I thought I’d taken drugs. I definitely hadn’t. I also spent some of the process feeling really nauseous. Luckily we’re both awesome and very good at creating and being safe spaces…

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    Between the One and the Many Spread

    This spread is for seeing where we are currently sitting between the one and the many. Seeing our current understanding of being in union or separation, being together or apart. And how these understandings are currently being expressed. I see life as centrally about relationship, and relationship as flowing between union and separation, both within and without. This spread aims to help see where you’re at right now within this eternal paradox, and to honour where you’ve come from. If you’re having any confusion about the relationship within, here’s one of nayyirah waheed’s wonderful poems: Positions 1 & 2 Where you sit These cards together describe where you’re currently sitting…

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    Blooming into Prosperity Spread

    This is a spread that aims to help clarify the feelings we currently have around our ability to prosper. Not just to survive but to thrive. I see our prosperity consciousness as made up of our relationship to our creativity,  our receptivity and our growth: In order to receive from the outside world and grow as individuals we need to be creating, tapping in to our creative drives. In order to be able to receive and create we need to grow, to create space and avoid stagnation. In order to feed both our creativity and our growth we need to be able to receive from the external world. Preparation In…

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    My Tarot Journey

    Unsteady beginnings I started reading tarot for myself and friends almost 20 years ago, but my relationship to it was often somewhat scattered and rocky. It didn’t feel enormously constructive, it could actually feel quite counterproductive, even frightening. I now understand that, for me, I was asking the wrong kinds of questions and looking for the wrong kinds of answers. Looking for predictions and advice about external matters. Not understanding that the solutions to all the riddles lie within. I didn’t really know what questions to ask, what would be productive and supportive. I also didn’t understand enough of what was going on for me emotionally to know when my…

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    Opening to my relationship…

    Here’s how the Opening to Relationship spread worked out for me recently… It definitely called me out on my shit and nicely focused my way forward.  I hadn’t actually tried this spread out on myself because I was all like ‘I’m really happy in my relationship!’, but obviously being really happy in your relationship doesn’t mean you aren’t putting your bullshit into it. I can now, with authority, say this is a badass spread. For the details of how to do it and a clearer picture of the positions go here. As usual I’m using the Mary El Tarot. The Reading The first three cards are the pile in the…

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    Opening into relationship spread

    This spread is for those times in our intimate relationships, at whatever stage they are at, when we’re feeling confused. Where we feel positive charges drawing us to open into them, drawing us to union, and negative charges drawing us away from them, to separation. As I’ve said elsewhere,  and MANY others before me, intimate relationships are hard, they bring up our shit. This can get in the way of our opening to divine gifts laid before us, and also get in the way of our seeing when its not a divine gift before us at all. We want our relationships to bring us to ourselves, to heal rather than…

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    Open the locked door in action 3

    The third sentence I used the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread for was ‘I/embody/my power’. Process This time I knew in advance i wanted a sentence for this spread and i wanted it to be empowering, showing me how to come into my power. I wanted to see how I was powerful. I wanted this spread to be positive, no negative words in it like ‘I am not a woman’, or ‘open the locked door’. This spread aimed at being the positive antidote to the first two and it certainly related to them, but of course not in the way I expected… The first sentence I wrote was ‘I am…