• Cards

    My Tarot Journey

    Unsteady beginnings I started reading tarot for myself and friends almost 20 years ago, but my relationship to it was often somewhat scattered and rocky. It didn’t feel enormously constructive, it could actually feel quite counterproductive, even frightening. I now understand that, for me, I was asking the wrong kinds of questions and looking for the wrong kinds of answers. Looking for predictions and advice about external matters. Not understanding that the solutions to all the riddles lie within. I didn’t really know what questions to ask, what would be productive and supportive. I also didn’t understand enough of what was going on for me emotionally to know when my…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 3

    The third sentence I used the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread for was ‘I/embody/my power’. Process This time I knew in advance i wanted a sentence for this spread and i wanted it to be empowering, showing me how to come into my power. I wanted to see how I was powerful. I wanted this spread to be positive, no negative words in it like ‘I am not a woman’, or ‘open the locked door’. This spread aimed at being the positive antidote to the first two and it certainly related to them, but of course not in the way I expected… The first sentence I wrote was ‘I am…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 1

    My previous post ‘Open the locked door…’ aimed at giving straight forward(ish) instructions for doing this 9 card spread. This and the next few posts will detail the readings I got with 3 different sentences and some of my process around that, as well as giving a few more sentence examples that I helped a friend to use to give an idea of how readers can use this spread with others. I think this is a particularly good spread for personal shadow work, but also worked really well with my friend. The deck I used for all these spreads was the Mary-El. I really love it for this sort of…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door…

    This is a highly adaptable spread for a wide variety of situations. If you’re free writing, meditating, doing the washing up, trying to look busy at work, cuddling a tree (you get the picture) and a sentence pops out at you. A sentence that holds some kind of power, you can create a spread out of it like this to explore that power/direction/energy that made it pop out. I’ve found it really useful for a bunch of different sentences. The last one was ‘I embody my power’, split into I/embody/my power. I thought it was going to be all about affirming my power, showing me how to access it and…

  • Clay

    Mud Metamorphosis

    This is a blog about my personal journey. My Mud Metamorphosis. My process of transformation through clay, cards and chaos. Here is the story of clay. I was, and still am, under many internal illusions. Illusions about both myself and the world around me. But at core, illusions about myself. I have fervently walked paths that were not my own, not guided by my true inner fires. I did not see myself. I entirely internalised goals I felt others had for me – parents, society, my ancestors, the world – I saw my life as in service to external needs, what I perceived others to need of me. I strove,…