• Cards,  Tarot Spreads

    Blooming into Prosperity by Grieving the Ancestors

    This is a recent reading I did for myself using the Blooming into Prosperity spread. I was very lucky to be supported by a very good and intuitively on point friend in doing this reading, a friend who has a talent for seeing emotions. She was the one who saw that the main issue for me for what it was, deep sadness, and I was then able to feel that it was a deep ancestral grief. The spread showed that the crux of my difficulties with opening to the growth and receptivity necessary for prosperity, was entirely based in ancestral fears. And my friend was able to see that I…

  • Cards,  Tarot Spreads

    Opening to my relationship…

    Here’s how the Opening to Relationship spread worked out for me recently… It definitely called me out on my shit and nicely focused my way forward.  I hadn’t actually tried this spread out on myself because I was all like ‘I’m really happy in my relationship!’, but obviously being really happy in your relationship doesn’t mean you aren’t putting your bullshit into it. I can now, with authority, say this is a badass spread. For the details of how to do it and a clearer picture of the positions go here. As usual I’m using the Mary El Tarot. The Reading The first three cards are the pile in the…

  • Cards,  Tarot Spreads

    Opening into relationship spread

    This spread is for those times in our intimate relationships, at whatever stage they are at, when we’re feeling confused. Where we feel positive charges drawing us to open into them, drawing us to union, and negative charges drawing us away from them, to separation. As I’ve said elsewhere,  and MANY others before me, intimate relationships are hard, they bring up our shit. This can get in the way of our opening to divine gifts laid before us, and also get in the way of our seeing when its not a divine gift before us at all. We want our relationships to bring us to ourselves, to heal rather than…

  • chaos

    Today I Rise…

    A friend shared the incredible video below for International Women's Day yesterday. I watched it today while dealing with feelings of fear and stress and anger. I bawled my eyes out.

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 3

    The third sentence I used the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread for was ‘I/embody/my power’. Process This time I knew in advance i wanted a sentence for this spread and i wanted it to be empowering, showing me how to come into my power. I wanted to see how I was powerful. I wanted this spread to be positive, no negative words in it like ‘I am not a woman’, or ‘open the locked door’. This spread aimed at being the positive antidote to the first two and it certainly related to them, but of course not in the way I expected… The first sentence I wrote was ‘I am…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 2

    This is the second reading I did for myself with the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread. This was where the name of the spread came from. Process After the ‘I am/not/a woman’ spread I felt the need to forgive myself. This was what the oracle cards had pointed to as the negative outcome in my life around my issues with womanhood. Through free writing on this I came to a need to forgive myself for the doors I had locked to myself. These locked doors felt like they were also stopping me from being able to forgive. I didn’t have conscious access to the information I needed to do this.…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 1

    My previous post ‘Open the locked door…’ aimed at giving straight forward(ish) instructions for doing this 9 card spread. This and the next few posts will detail the readings I got with 3 different sentences and some of my process around that, as well as giving a few more sentence examples that I helped a friend to use to give an idea of how readers can use this spread with others. I think this is a particularly good spread for personal shadow work, but also worked really well with my friend. The deck I used for all these spreads was the Mary-El. I really love it for this sort of…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door…

    This is a highly adaptable spread for a wide variety of situations. If you’re free writing, meditating, doing the washing up, trying to look busy at work, cuddling a tree (you get the picture) and a sentence pops out at you. A sentence that holds some kind of power, you can create a spread out of it like this to explore that power/direction/energy that made it pop out. I’ve found it really useful for a bunch of different sentences. The last one was ‘I embody my power’, split into I/embody/my power. I thought it was going to be all about affirming my power, showing me how to access it and…

  • Clay

    Mud Metamorphosis

    This is a blog about my personal journey. My Mud Metamorphosis. My process of transformation through clay, cards and chaos. Here is the story of clay. I was, and still am, under many internal illusions. Illusions about both myself and the world around me. But at core, illusions about myself. I have fervently walked paths that were not my own, not guided by my true inner fires. I did not see myself. I entirely internalised goals I felt others had for me – parents, society, my ancestors, the world – I saw my life as in service to external needs, what I perceived others to need of me. I strove,…