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    Counting the Omer: Freeing my Judaism from patriarchy

    Even Girls Can Count? This week I have, for the first time, begun Counting the Omer (thanks to an excellent Instagram hashtag #taromer started last year by @omerwithtarot, who would’ve thought I would start Counting the Omer through tarot?!!?) I had never participated in such Jewish rites growing up, as my Jewish roots are both Orthodox, and somewhat severed. My grandparents on my mother’s side were Orthodox. More than half of my family on that side still are, with a significant proportion being Hasidic. I grew up feeling an enormous amount of love and warmth in a house filled with religious texts, teachings and laws. I went with my safta…

  • Cards,  Tarot Spreads

    Opening to my relationship…

    Here’s how the Opening to Relationship spread worked out for me recently… It definitely called me out on my shit and nicely focused my way forward.  I hadn’t actually tried this spread out on myself because I was all like ‘I’m really happy in my relationship!’, but obviously being really happy in your relationship doesn’t mean you aren’t putting your bullshit into it. I can now, with authority, say this is a badass spread. For the details of how to do it and a clearer picture of the positions go here. As usual I’m using the Mary El Tarot. The Reading The first three cards are the pile in the…

  • Cards,  Tarot Spreads

    Opening into relationship spread

    This spread is for those times in our intimate relationships, at whatever stage they are at, when we’re feeling confused. Where we feel positive charges drawing us to open into them, drawing us to union, and negative charges drawing us away from them, to separation. As I’ve said elsewhere,  and MANY others before me, intimate relationships are hard, they bring up our shit. This can get in the way of our opening to divine gifts laid before us, and also get in the way of our seeing when its not a divine gift before us at all. We want our relationships to bring us to ourselves, to heal rather than…

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    Today I Rise…

    A friend shared the incredible video below for International Women's Day yesterday. I watched it today while dealing with feelings of fear and stress and anger. I bawled my eyes out.

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 3

    The third sentence I used the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread for was ‘I/embody/my power’. Process This time I knew in advance i wanted a sentence for this spread and i wanted it to be empowering, showing me how to come into my power. I wanted to see how I was powerful. I wanted this spread to be positive, no negative words in it like ‘I am not a woman’, or ‘open the locked door’. This spread aimed at being the positive antidote to the first two and it certainly related to them, but of course not in the way I expected… The first sentence I wrote was ‘I am…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 2

    This is the second reading I did for myself with the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread. This was where the name of the spread came from. Process After the ‘I am/not/a woman’ spread I felt the need to forgive myself. This was what the oracle cards had pointed to as the negative outcome in my life around my issues with womanhood. Through free writing on this I came to a need to forgive myself for the doors I had locked to myself. These locked doors felt like they were also stopping me from being able to forgive. I didn’t have conscious access to the information I needed to do this.…