• Cards

    My Tarot Journey

    Unsteady beginnings I started reading tarot for myself and friends almost 20 years ago, but my relationship to it was often somewhat scattered and rocky. It didn’t feel enormously constructive, it could actually feel quite counterproductive, even frightening. I now understand that, for me, I was asking the wrong kinds of questions and looking for the wrong kinds of answers. Looking for predictions and advice about external matters. Not understanding that the solutions to all the riddles lie within. I didn’t really know what questions to ask, what would be productive and supportive. I also didn’t understand enough of what was going on for me emotionally to know when my…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 2

    This is the second reading I did for myself with the ‘Open the locked door…’ spread. This was where the name of the spread came from. Process After the ‘I am/not/a woman’ spread I felt the need to forgive myself. This was what the oracle cards had pointed to as the negative outcome in my life around my issues with womanhood. Through free writing on this I came to a need to forgive myself for the doors I had locked to myself. These locked doors felt like they were also stopping me from being able to forgive. I didn’t have conscious access to the information I needed to do this.…

  • Cards,  delving

    Open the locked door in action 1

    My previous post ‘Open the locked door…’ aimed at giving straight forward(ish) instructions for doing this 9 card spread. This and the next few posts will detail the readings I got with 3 different sentences and some of my process around that, as well as giving a few more sentence examples that I helped a friend to use to give an idea of how readers can use this spread with others. I think this is a particularly good spread for personal shadow work, but also worked really well with my friend. The deck I used for all these spreads was the Mary-El. I really love it for this sort of…

  • Clay

    Mud Metamorphosis

    This is a blog about my personal journey. My Mud Metamorphosis. My process of transformation through clay, cards and chaos. Here is the story of clay. I was, and still am, under many internal illusions. Illusions about both myself and the world around me. But at core, illusions about myself. I have fervently walked paths that were not my own, not guided by my true inner fires. I did not see myself. I entirely internalised goals I felt others had for me – parents, society, my ancestors, the world – I saw my life as in service to external needs, what I perceived others to need of me. I strove,…